haisss...soo many terrible things have been happening lately. the only people who understands me truely is only my mum, sis and bro. sometimes when i go to school, people will ask if i'm alright. i will just say "yeah" eventhough deep down inside i'm not. but who cares. nenek da meninggal :,( i will miss her alot. i regret going to school on thursday. if only i can turn back time....why was i stuck to making a discission between going to school and visiting her. why. why did i choose to go to school???? she wanted to visit me....i will regret it for my whole entire life. she is the best nenek....:') now i'm only left with one grandma. and she is always in and out of the hospital. and my dad is now having a "breakdown" eversince nenek is gone...always keeping quite and just ignoring his family. the truth why i did'nt do well in my exams is that i can't focus....i was too busy taking care of my grandma. going to the hospital each day as i can...and if i did study, i just can't focus....my only listening ears now is mum and sis. i've been quite lately...not talking much...just going home straight after school...now that grandma have gone back to living with my aunt i can have a break. each day something terrible will happen...but now it's slowly fading away...Alhamdullilah. there is just more about this story, just that i can't reveal it as it is a personal and family matters...something i can't tell anyone. only my family knows.
people, if your parents scold you, don't scold vulgarities to them, just let it be. you guys are really lucky to have normal parents...really some people in this world don't really have a perfect parents. sometimes their dad can have problems or sometimes their mum. they not being a normal person. as in Normal. yeah i know your parents scold you about results all. it's normal. you will do the same to your children in the future too... so just take it as they want the best for you only..:) i will always love my parents no matter what. even if there is something wrong with them. i will still love them. i will always pray for the best for all of us. amin. :)
(i know nobody will be reading this, just letting out my feelings here.)
pray to God each day. your parents love you ~
