Life have been quite hard for me lately.
Emotionally to be exact.
My sister is still mad at me for no apparent reason.
But I don't care bout that at all.
I hope somehow you came across my blog and read this.
People all tell me to talk to her.
To have a heart to heart talk with her.
To let my other family members spent more time with her.
But what's the point if we did all of this but its you yourself who won't do anything.
We all cared for you.
And eversince you did that, you made our family look like the bad people.
Especially me and ibu.
I mean I didn't even do anything wrong to her.
You felt that way towards yourself.
Low self-esteem.
Not loved.
A loner.
But i swear i have nothing to do with your life.you choose to have your life that way.
I was just there supporting you and this is what you did in return.
Jealous of me for no reason.
Its a different story if I was mean, arrogant, showoff.
But i didn't do any of that.
I have passion in Art. Thats why I'm good at it.
I wanna study well, thats why i worked hard. And if I did well or scored well, Well...it just mean that my hardwork was paid off.
And honestly I'm a average looking girl.
And if in your eyes you think that I'm pretty and you're not. It's not my fault. I am just being myself.
I have my own style to make myself look presentable and pleasant. Whenever we are going shopping or anything. I will always pick out the nice dresses or clorhes for you. But in the end you will still choose your own taste and style cause that is you.
Emotionally to be exact.
My sister is still mad at me for no apparent reason.
But I don't care bout that at all.
I hope somehow you came across my blog and read this.
People all tell me to talk to her.
To have a heart to heart talk with her.
To let my other family members spent more time with her.
But what's the point if we did all of this but its you yourself who won't do anything.
We all cared for you.
And eversince you did that, you made our family look like the bad people.
Especially me and ibu.
I mean I didn't even do anything wrong to her.
You felt that way towards yourself.
Low self-esteem.
Not loved.
A loner.
But i swear i have nothing to do with your life.you choose to have your life that way.
I was just there supporting you and this is what you did in return.
Jealous of me for no reason.
Its a different story if I was mean, arrogant, showoff.
But i didn't do any of that.
I have passion in Art. Thats why I'm good at it.
I wanna study well, thats why i worked hard. And if I did well or scored well, Well...it just mean that my hardwork was paid off.
And honestly I'm a average looking girl.
And if in your eyes you think that I'm pretty and you're not. It's not my fault. I am just being myself.
I have my own style to make myself look presentable and pleasant. Whenever we are going shopping or anything. I will always pick out the nice dresses or clorhes for you. But in the end you will still choose your own taste and style cause that is you.
I have friends and you don't? Thats a problem to you?
Have you wondered why you don't? MAYBE there is a reason why. Don't get my friends involve in this ego of yours. So if you feel like your self esteem goes down because of that I'm sorry. I'm your own blood sister and I never knew you will feel that way.
God made me and you this way.
So why feel guilty? About yourself?
I mean I hope you realise your own mistake.
And Ibu sacrificed a lot for you. Can't you see it?
And you still have the cheeck to tell others that ibu is favourism towards her children.
To be honest, ibu put more effort in you.
Too bad you can't see it.
And people telling me to seek forgiveness from you?
For what? What did I do wrong? You suddenly changed. You choose to be depressed. You scolded buckets of vulgarities to me that night.
And all I remember is that i just came home from school at 6.30 p.m.
Despite feeling tired I still prepare break fast for you and Aziz eventhough you were at home before I came back and you can do it.
All the things ibu and abah told you to do you didn't do and in the end I helped you.
You didn't even appreciate it.
Not even a "Thank-You".
So why feel guilty? About yourself?
I mean I hope you realise your own mistake.
And Ibu sacrificed a lot for you. Can't you see it?
And you still have the cheeck to tell others that ibu is favourism towards her children.
To be honest, ibu put more effort in you.
Too bad you can't see it.
And people telling me to seek forgiveness from you?
For what? What did I do wrong? You suddenly changed. You choose to be depressed. You scolded buckets of vulgarities to me that night.
And all I remember is that i just came home from school at 6.30 p.m.
Despite feeling tired I still prepare break fast for you and Aziz eventhough you were at home before I came back and you can do it.
All the things ibu and abah told you to do you didn't do and in the end I helped you.
You didn't even appreciate it.
Not even a "Thank-You".
I cleared you bookshelf for you.
I changed your bedsheet for you.
I fold all the clothes.
I served food for you.
I washed your plates for you.
I even tried talking to you and you ignored me countless times.
And you still tell people is that I'm the one not making the effort?
I don't know what's wrong with you.
I hope you get your life sorted out.
And realised all these mistakes.
I'm sick and tired of you and I won't even care if you won't do well for prelims or N levels.
Cause you are not even making the effort.
I don't know what's wrong with you.
I hope you get your life sorted out.
And realised all these mistakes.
I'm sick and tired of you and I won't even care if you won't do well for prelims or N levels.
Cause you are not even making the effort.
In the end it's your lost.
What will you even get from cutting yourself?
Just scars to make your skin look worst.
Just scars to make your skin look worst.
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