PFP? Sec 5? ITE?

There's only less than 4 weeks till prelims starts.
I'm so scared and nervous.
I really wanna do well in both prelims and actual N levels.
I wanna aim for PFP.
I don't think I will be coming back for sec 5.
If i can't get PFP, ITE maybe?
ITE route to poly.
Idk man...the way all the teachers told us that sec 5 is really very hard terrifies me
I'm scared that I can't cope with the stress.
After discussing with my friends all, they are too scared of going to sec 5.
Even those with really good grades.
So. At least PFP.
If not ITE.
I really hope I can do this.
Study hard now, get good grades and get out from this school asap.
But still....omg
So there's many decisions we must do in life.
oh well.
Let's just see how it goes.

Realised.

We all have bad sides.
Some are hot tempered.
Sensitive.
Forceful.
Easily annoyed.
Emotional.
Get hurt too easily.
Trust people too easily.
Well...everyone has their own attitude or should i say bad side that we can't control but we wish we could.
Like for me, i'm petty. Yes i know i am.
I'm trying my best to control it.
It's hard for me.
But at least i realised my bad side.
I swear i would not know that i have this bad side if no one didn't tell me.
Yes it might be hurtful for your loved ones to tell you your bad side.
But it's for the better.
I mean they are your loved ones afterall.
So instead of expressing out your hatred or feelings on the social network or maybe harm yourself..
why not ask your loved ones
Ask them why is everyone making use of you, not talking to you, making you angry etc...
Maybe it's not them.
Maybe it's just you.
I swear your life will be soooooo sooooo much better after that.
Yes, i was once emotional too.
Until my best friends told me why is many people acting a certain towards me.
See, now everything is so much better.

I'm grateful to be who I am now.
Thanks to all those people who truly care for me and has been by my side.
♥

Praying to Him

I wish i could pray now....
But due to my period.
I can't..
:(
Praying is like one of the most amazing feeling.
You will calm and peaceful after you've pray.
Imagine that calm feeling you will get after a long and tiring which may be full of ups or downs.
And then you reach home, bath and pray.
And all that chaotic moment will just be gone for that day.
And you will enjoy the rest of your night feeling calm.
It's a amazing feeling.
It's like Allah is answering to your prayers.
He will make you feel calm.
Peaceful.
And relax.
I just wish i could pray now.
And ask for forgiveness for all my sins and pray for every people well being in life.
People are bound to make mistakes and sins in life.
All we could do is pray.
And InsyaAllah, HE will forgive us.

I just wish i could pray now. :')

Midnight thoughts

This is the point of time when I just lay back and think of the wonderful people in my life. And how I can't imagine losing them. They mean alot to me. I love them more than myself. I will always pray for them. Pray for their happiness in life. It hurts to think that one day all of this will come to an end. So we must really treasure each and every moment of our precious time spent with our beloved ones. It's really not about the money or anything else in life. It's just pure love and care. People will come and go in your life. But there is a few who will stay forever. And you'll only need that few to make your life feel complete. And of course the little or maybe big pets if you have one. They mean a lot to me too. I will never want to grow old alone. I know I won't. Cause I'm very sure I have found mine. Sometimes people think it's just what the malays will say "cinta-cinta monyet". Which means young love. But this love. I feel different. Our feelings towards each other. Yeah it feels one of a kind. Idk how to describe it. Only both of us know how it feels like. I mean really. I have never felt so complete in life. I know and i'm sure we will go far. As long as we have each other.
And of course my love towards Allah. I will never lose it too. And of course my family, especially Ibu. I love all of my family members. My mum, dad, sister and brother and not forgetting Kiddy. I love all of them so much. They cant be rank in my heart. And I will not forget my dear friends. Who have always been making my day with their super lame jokes...or maybe it's mine.

HAHAH JJ if you are reading this. And if you're still awake. Hi. ╰（￣▽￣）╭ I was just y'know expressing myself late at night.

AND. 143 ♥

I should sleep now.
Ta ta.

Puasa

1st day of puasa ✔
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♥ Ramadhan

Salam Ramadhan. ♥
Alhamdullilah the first day of puasa is over yesterday.
Today will be the second day of bulan Ramadhan.
Insya'allah i will feel better.
And hopefully can fast throughout today.
Despite feeling weak, restless and sick yesterday, I'm really glad i manage to fast for the whole day.
Felt so weak that i screwed up my English N level oral yesterday. :(
But it's okay.
I hope I will not feel this way when I'm doing other N level papers. Insya'Allah.
Amin.

To all Muslims out there Selamat berpuasa and Salam Ramadhan. ♥

Art.

So lately i have been damn busy with art. My art schedule is like taking over most of my time. But it's okay! Work hard now enjoy later! The dateline is coming too, so, must hurry! Yes it is tiring. But it will be worth it. I mean if like i go back to sec 5 i will not have electives! So more time to study. But then i wanna try and aim for PFP. Well, hard decisions. Lets just see how it goes.

imagine dragons

Radioactive -Imagine Dragons

It's time -Imagine Dragons

Demons - Imagine Dragon

(My all time fave song)

June Hols 2013

I must say that this year's June holidays are one of the best holidays in my life. Did so much activities and family time was spent a lot. Well i don't usually go out with my family but i must say i went out with them a lot last month which felt great and amazing like after so many years, we finally get to have some family time together.

And of course OPUS 2013! it was an amazing concert for the sec fours this year. I've always like how we end our four years in the band by having an annual concert for the stepping down ceremony. Will miss the band so much. Can't believe it, four years have gone by just like that. I still remember the times when i almost gave up on band due to some reasons. I'm glad that this year sec fours realised that we must not be mad or angry at our juniors. Instead we must bond with them very well. Which i'm glad we did. After all those years when our seniors will just...hais. Only we know what they did to us. haha! but i still love my ex seniors too.

And a day spent at the beach with my beloved family!
And also a girls' day out with mum and sissy to the USS! (best moments in my life)

A day at the beach -9 June 2013

Universal Studios S'pore - 26 June 2013