Sakura

Dinner at Sakura yesterday to celebrate advanced birthday for Alison and belated birthday for JJ. Cravings are satisfied.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JJ!

Dear Tan Jing Jie,

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY!
You are finally 16! Wheee ╰（￣▽￣）╭
Come let's go and apply for the job! HAHAHAHA!
I hope you will have a great day today, or maybe you had it just now, but still hehe.
I would like to take this oppurtunity to thank you for everything you had done for me.
It's been 11 months now and exactly 11 more days it will be 1 year!
Hehehe I really appreciate your love, care, concern and time spent with me.
I know we do have our ups and downs, but those are the reason why we are even closer and understand each other even better than before! 

Glad that you never gave up on me, I PROMISE I will never give up on you too. :)
Hehehe ♥
Well, I don't want to make this a long message, cause I'm saving it for a special day.
Can't wait to see you soon and celebrate!
I ♥ you. ;)

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ☜ 16 hearts for your 16th birthday!

(P.s. it is 25 October. My blog always seem to be a few hours late.╰（￣▽￣）╭) ♥ 

Overthinking.

This is the point of time in life which I dislike like a lot. I hate overthinking stuff. Like
"will ibu be fine?"
"Where are we gonna get the money?"
"what can i do to help ibu?"
"Ttyl.."
"will there be enough time?"
"Still have to go school, going out on certain days, so will I have enough time to do art?"
"will this take up so much time?"
"ttyl.."
"ttyl.."
"I feel really bad for ignoring ppl, I'm sorry but I have to cause I can't help myself too."
"ttyl.."
"I REALLY want to relax but I can't."
Sometimes, I push myself too far. Overdo stuff but on the other side I feel like I have to do it.
Honestly, when ibu is not home, I will be the one usually who cleans the house, cook for my sibilings. I hope my sister help out sometimes. But....idk. And at the same time I have to managed between doing art too.
I feel soooooo tired.
I just want to relax and text him all day but I can't. This is when I feel bad for always having to say "Ttyl" to him. I'm really glad he understands. I really feel bad but I have to do this. Thats why whenever I text him during my breaks, I tend to sound idk? Fake? But the truth is I really want to text him but at the same time my mind will be asking me questions like "what are you gonna do next? You have no time to waste." Thats why I sound so unintrested eventhough I really do. Hais...I wish I could relax sometime. And the fact that straight after I'm over and done with art, I will be starting my job at Uniqlo. I just hope that job will be managable and not so tiring. Most of my friends have started their jobs. They seem to be soooooooooo tired everyday. It scares me. I mean I know it WILL be tiring. I just hope it will be a good kind if tired and not the bad kind. You know what I'm saying? Yeah those kind whereby you come home and say "I'm tired, but I had some fun." And not those kind whereby you say "I'm soooo tired can I not like go to work tmr? Or quit?" It worries me too. I mean, first job. Something new. I just really, really, really hope it will be a good experience for me. I hope JJ could get the same job too after he apply for it, at least I won't feel nervous. Really, he makes my life better. Even when I'm not being myself. I really appreciate him a lot. ♥ So yeah. This thoughts. Urghhhhh.
It annoys me too. The fact that I could only handle some and not all. I just want to feel relax and duty free some days. The only time I feel really calm is when I'm doing my prayers and texting him (JJ). Yeahhh. But it makes me sad to know that my overthinking and weird self is affecting people I love. I will cut down on my overthinking side. I just don't want people to feel like I'm being weird or avoiding them. I'm not. This is one of my flaws. I'm trying to change it.
I hate it too...
and I WILL change it and I PROMISE.

25 Oct.

3 more days to 25th Oct.
3 more days till someone's birthday.

3 more days and someone will turn 16. 

3 more days and someone will apply for a his first part time job.

3 more days and we will celebrate.

3 more days and NC16 will be officially for you.
Yay! ♥

Universal Studios Singapore (26.06.13)

I just realised I didn't post about my USS experience. Hehehe. Oppsssss. It was way back on 26 June. Honestly. It was sooooo enjoyable and memoriable. Love it man. I didn't dare to take the Galactica cause I'm really afraid of heights. I mean, The Mummy Ride was already terrifying. I can't imagine taking the Galactica ride. hahaha! I'm so pathetic. Anyways, i went to USS with ibu and Maya. yeshhhh. My favourite ride was Transformers ride, obviously. So cool. And we are so lucky to have our cousin working at the fast food restaurant. Cause, free food. yeahhh it was a great day.

4 years. Goodbye ♥

So, its been 4 years being a student in Orchid Park Secondary School.
I still remember the day I choose OPSS as my secondary school and the only reason is because, it's so close to home, come on save time and energy!
Hahahaha I remember going to this school still as my old usual lonely and quiet self.
Really I was a real loner in primary school.
And I thought I will still stay the same in secondary school.
Somehow, this school changed me. Ok maybe not the school, I mean the people I have met.
I have been through soooooo many ups and downs being in this school and I'm glad that my last year being in this school is the happiest year ever.
I really love my sec 4 life, mainly because, people change, and they all change for the better. Majority of us are matured by now I must say.
I still remember my sec 1 days where I can say, a wannabe minah. Failed obviously. And I find it lame. So I changed.
Then sec 2, I became the chairperson of 2B2. This particular year, so many downs for me. BUT all this downs taught me soooooo much. I would actually say I appreciate that ithappened to me. I have learnt so much from it.
Sec 3, our class were separated, I went to 3B1, and lose my used to be closed friends, but I didn't mind. I still consider them as my friends still, hating people is useless. But amazing things happened at the end of this particular year
And finally, sec 4. Man, love this year. I mean despite N levels all, this year is seriously the most memoriable year. I still can't believe it we finished our N levels.
My plans after this, for sure I'm not coming back to sec 5, if miracle happens, PFP. But obviously not, hahahahahaha higher nitec is my choice. Idc what people are gonna say. I seriously find this a way better way to go to Poly instead of going back to sec 5. I don't mind not having O level cert. I know what I'm gonna do in the future and diploma is all I need to aim for.
So, this is it, 4 years of my secondary school life has come to an end. This chapter is finally close.
After 4 years, I have learnt so many values in life. Mistakes were made. Lessons are learnt. I know who are my true friends now.
The people who I taught will stay by my side didn't and the most unexpected people became the most treasured people I can't bear lose.
We are obviously going on our own separate ways. I just hope that all my friends were be what they wish to be. Seriously I believe that Passion is way better than anything.
That's what I am heading for, a dream job, a job that I will be passionate in.
All the best to my dear friends, may you guys have a great future ahead.
You guys will always be in my prayers.

1B2'10, 2B2'11, 3B1'12, 3B1'13 ♥

Morning walk.

Spent the whole morning with him. It was a pleasure just having him by my side and watched the sunrise together while talking about everything and anything. :)

Movie date (14.10.13)

Solemnly swear.

From today onwards,
At this very day,
At this second,
I solemnly swear I'm gonna change for the better.

I swear that I will pray 5 times everyday.
I'm glad that I'm already doing this.
I will wear tudung from now on.
And I will appreciate everything in life.
Act like its gonna be your last everyday.
Cause one day it will be.
Start a new.
We are still young.

It's never too late.
I really hope that my family or maybe certain friends...will change too.
I'm glad to have JJ, who is a wonderful guy and respect every decision I made.
Not only that, he still loves and care for me.
No matter what.

I'm really happy to have you in my life.
So grateful.

Remember, we won't live forever.
And while we are still livibg, let's do all the amanah we have to do.
Start now.
If not now, then when?

InsyaAllah we can :)